A private moment of introspection is turned into a public spectacle again
- This cycle of low and high
- It’s not even a choice
- in my case that’s what happens
- whether it is a necessity or not it’s something that.... hm.... it’s a cycle that happens.
- I still hope that one day........ I will be able to.......
A 17.5 minutes long video performance that took place in Aug 98 at the I.C.A in London. The intention at the time was to expose and challenge the voyeuristic fascination that public confessions can elicit in an audience, bearing in mind that the fascination is normally proportional to the sensationalism of the act revealed. In this case, the momentary preoccupation, frustrations, anxieties, fears and confusion of a 35 years old woman artist.
8 years later, I revisit this personal and timely introspective work and re-edit the original recorded monologue. Trying perhaps to free myself from past concerns that I do not necessarily (wish to) relate to anymore. I imagine that I will revisit this work again in 10 years or so.