hot, stormy
- May defends public sector pay cap while bribing the DUP 1 billion pounds to keep her in power.
- MOIblog is reactivated.
James Bone - the London perambulator (1925)
Nicholas Thoburn - ANTI BOOK (2017)
One day at a time

On being emotionally truthful

6th July 2017

-- It has been a busy few months juggling all kinds of interesting projects; my first CD, exhibition, publications, performances, round table discussion etc.. I could write a newsletter as so many artists do nowadays to keep their network informed. I thought instead that this could be the perfect occasion to revive MOIblog that has lain dormant for way to long.. since it is an online chronicle in image and text as a written and visual summary of one’s life as it happens or has happened. I kept it going from 2007 for 5 years. I had to stop when life suddenly became too challenging. I used to publish a limited edition yearbook THE YEAR ( volume 1 to 5), printing on paper the last 52 weeks of my online blog, complete with poster and dvd supplement. I have a few copy lefts and the pdf is freely available from MOIblog archive on my website.

As I contemplate what to include and what to leave out for another time, i get distracted by hearing Sir John Chilcot the chairman of the inquiry into the Iraq war, revealing a year after his report was released, that Tony Blair was not straight with the nation since he relied on beliefs rather then facts. Proving in many ways how pointless such inquiries are in providing real answers as well as justice. Hard not to think about the inquiry into the Grenfell Tower disaster. It looks like those responsible have nothing to worry about..

-- Ode (owed) to O

a double cd, recorded, mastered and with some arrangements by André o.Möller, that will be released by Edition Wandelweiser in July 2017.

You can have a sneak preview here !

Ode (owed) to O is is a bit of a concept CD, and my first one! It consists of reading through (CD 1) and reading from (CD 2) a book of words to a single letter, to breath and silence, navigating between erotic literature, conceptual writing and verbal score. It represents a follow up and conclusion, hopefully, of over 6 years of experimenting and meandering around the famous erotic novel Histoire d’O first published in 1954, under the pen name Pauline Réage.
In Reading (Story of) O published in 2015 by uniformbooks I reprinted, in parallel, both English and French versions in a graphic reworking of the original story accompanied by three further texts: (Story of) A, (Story of) E and (Reading) O, a series of instructions for reading alone or with others.

Ode (owed) to O contains recordings and arrangements of collective readings based on the (Reading) O instructions as well as Only and Ohh, 2 new scores for voices and instruments, attempting to release O from her inevitable end. Alone together, you aloud to yourself, your mouth moving O, your voice to those. Echoes of O, unbound for moment, of O, of you.

The CD will be launched at KlangRaum 2017 (18th -23rd July) in Dusselrdorf where I will be performing one of the scores daily accompanied by a musician. I am in the process of organizing a London launch and performing of the work for early 2018. Watch this space!

I am really thankful to Antoine Beuger for giving me this opportunity and for his continuying support and inspiration over the years, and to UCA research fund for contributing to the production.

-- The Lost Diagrams of Walter Benjamin

Danielle, Hazel, Katy, Antoine, Thomas, Walter and the others -­ one esquisse of protogenesis

A new publication edited by Helen Clarke & Sharon Kivland with essays by Helen Clarke, Sam Dolbear, & Christian A. Wollin, published by Ma Bibliothèque
ISBN 978-1-910055-36-6 - 120 pages - 205 mm x 140 mm Format: Paperback 2017

This is my double spread contribution to this great project; an arrow and bow from my childhood in Morocco pointing at a possible retrospective web of chosen and given connections that led me to this moment of reflection on WB lost diagrams.

“In A Berlin Chronicle Walter Benjamin describes his autobiography as a space to be walked (indeed, it is a labyrinth, with entrances he calls primal acquaintances). The contributors to The Lost Diagrams respond to the invitation to accompany Benjamin in reproducing the web of connections of his diagram, which, once lost (he was inconsolable), was never fully redrawn.. Their diagrams, after Benjamin, are fragments, scribbles, indexes, bed covers, and body parts.” (press release)

The Lost Diagrams of Walter Benjamin will be launched next week at Miss Read, the Berlin Art Book Festival 2017 and available thereafter from Anagram Books and Ma Bibliothèque for a modest £12.50

-- Armel Beaufils, le Regard des femmes

An exhibiton and accompanying publication curated by Sharon Kivland for
FRAC de Bretagne
Presbytère, Saint-Briac-sur-Mer France - 1/07/2017 to 1/09/17

I am one of 40 women artists invited ‘to respond (indeed, correspond) with a work, a plaster model, by the sculptor Armel Beaufils (1882–1952). I was allocated Jeune fille assise un pied dans l'eau (sitting maiden with one foot in water). The form of response/correspondence is constrained only by the size and two-dimensional nature of the wall panel exhibited alongside the plaster model, and of the pages of the book accompanying the exhibition, bringing together our response with a photograph of the work to which it refers.
I proposed a double self portrait Femme argile (ou le plaisir d’y tremper un peu plus que le pied), Clay woman (or the pleasure of dipping a bit more then one’s foot)
Documentation to follow shortly.

- Rethinking Interaction in the Post-Digital: A Roundtable Discussion

5th June 2017, 10.30–18.30, Mayday Rooms, London

James Trafford and I hosted a day long bookRoom event at the great MAYDAY Rooms.
The format emphasised discussion, cross fertilisation, and significant engagement with the central issues being developed around the topics: post digital publication, participatory & collaborative models, modes of engagement and art-production, digital & post-digital forms of political engagement, algorithmic norms etc..
We had 6 discussion starters, from Diann Bauer (Xenofeminism), Alessandro Ludovico (Neural), Luke Pendrell, Nick Thoburn (Anti book), Nick Thurston (information as material), and Inigo Wilkins (Irreversible Noise), preceded by a summary and reading materials sent out to all in advance. Other participants were Danny Aldred, Ami Clarke, Peter Fifield, Lynda Fitzwater, Lee Holden, Mark Hudson, Matt Johnston, Adam Knight, Kaja Marczewska, Mason Terrill, Manuel Vason.

We are aiming for some sort of post event publication around a “reflexive report” of the day by Michael Hampton (Unshelfmarked - Reconceiving the artist book). A delicious vegetarian lunch was provided by Ela Circieska in the Mayday rooms kitchen.
Details of the program

- Jungle fever in Athens

for Gestures of Resistance
Romantso Cultural Centre, Athens, Greece
Exhibition - 20th to 30th April 2017 - Procession Sat 22nd April

I contributed a JUNGLE FEVER in Athens map and two JUNGLE FEVER banners to a project curated by Jean Wainwright. The map refers equally to one's mind and body, or the city itself as potential sites for gestures of resistance as well as to the itinerary of the procession. The instructions provided on the back of the map elude to a playful and creative approach to protesting but to life as well; as acts of resistance against ruthless capitalism and consumerism, as ways of changing the world without wanting power, in the words of John Holloway. Some of the slogans have been inscribed on the 2 banners used in the procession.

- Bouche Bée

Bouche Bée was formed in 2005 as one of the outcomes of VINST, a project exploring the body as language and the interplay between the real and the virtual world. Petri Huurinainen on acoustic guitar and objects and myself on voice, tabla and objects, have been performing and improvising on the edges of language as a duo for the past 10 years.

We have recently been joined by John Eyles on saxophone. Becoming a trio has brought all kinds of new ideas and depth to our project and repertoire. After a few promising sessions in mighty Thornton Heath we had our first public outing on the 23rd of June in the House Mill, a wonderful listed 18th century tidal mill in Bromley by Bow, for Dark Art Circus, an event hosted by Peter Kennedy. We played a 20 mins set, in the courtyard after night fall with a fantastic London skyline and the river Thames behind us, birds responding to our sounds, a heron flying over us. The recording will be uploaded on our website soon and we are planning more dates for the autumn.

The London skyline from The House Mill in Bromley by Bow

wintery, windy
- UK flood alerts
- MOIblog is reactivated
Nanao Sakaki - How to live on the planet earth
One day it will be over, it is not sad, it is a fact (of life)

A page is turned again and again and again

6th Jan. 2014

May this year bring us more joy more peace less mindless consumerism and some good times together. Or here is to “ carrying on and doing what we can while we can... “ A much more appropriate and accurate wish perhaps.

--- 2014 is finally here, complete with new year resolutions that will not be kept and great relief that 2013 and the festive season is over. I took a MOIblog gap year, time to become officially menopaused and accompany both my parents and Isabelle to the other side, not necessarily willingly or in that order. It has been a very difficult and life changing twelve months. All my life I have felt quite mature and grown-up and have had my fair share of ups and downs but only now do I really feel like an adult. Becoming an orphan at fifty one is very reasonable, though losing both within nine months of each other (to the day, Paulette 28/12/2012, Henri (28/09/13) is a bit too much. What is more difficult is to feel so little prepared or apt at dealing with death, emotionally, psychologically but also practically. After all this is the only certainty we have in life, yet it takes us by complete surprise and everything becomes so dramatic and complicated, and extremely expensive! I never thought dying could cost so much, such a racket there. I think it is quite different in other cultures, but in the West we may be very sophisticated when it comes to living and consuming and having a good time, but nothing ever prepares us for our or other's death. it is also difficult to share or discuss it candidly with the 'living' since it automatically creates a gloomy or embarassed atmosphere or triggers fear and anxieties. It is not true of everybody of course, those who are or have been through it already are often keen to share and compare experiences. This usually leads to beautiful conversations.

-- So here i am again, more mature, still bruised and grieving but slowly coming out of a state of shock followed by a long period of self induced isolation on automatic pilot. I am starting to be able to look outward and forward again. I have spent the Christmas break here in London, catching up with archiving and documentation; JUNGLE FEVER in Ahmedabad and Neufelden, FLUSSAUFWAERTS#3 this summer, BdeM hat collection and of course my website and MOIblog.
I am rejoicing at the familiarity of the gestures required to do this. It is painful to look at some recent images from which so many are no longer around, my 50th birthday party for exemple, who would have thought that a few months later three of them would have left us, same with the BdeM hat collection. I have just made a video from some of the images, to use as a complement / advert to the book i am starting to make with 100 photographs of my knitted hats worn by their new owners, taken since i started in 2007. i now have quite a few close people on the other side, in order of disappearance Bernard, Kathy, Isabelle, Paulette. I have decided to dedicate a wall of my home to the departed and display a small framed photograph I took of them. I may also include others , that I don't know personally but who have effected me (positively).

on New Year's day I read some of Nanao Sakaki's collected poems "how to live on the planet earth". It did brighten the dark and rainy day that it was and provided a great quote to include in the brief description of PRAELUDERE (ballades form the 20th century) I was sending Christoph Nicholas and Marcus Kaiser in preparation for performing them in Munich early February. ...Every footprint is a song, the song of life, painted on the sand, painted in the air ...

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